The B5 First Ones Personality Test

Who Are You?
There was a time I could answer that, but now I'm not so sure. I'm becoming steadily less the person I thought I was as each new crisis adds another layer of strain onto me. At one stage I would have prided myself on my ability to ride such storms out, but now as opposed to clutching the bow and yelling 'Steady as she goes!' to the helmsman I find myself lashed to the mast with my eyes screwed shut. I'm a friend to some, a trustworthy acquiantance to others. I define myself by what I can do for others- helping them with problems, giving advice on courses of action, running RPGs to keep them entertained and occasionally cooking for them. I am, in general, dissatisfied with myself- I feel that my reason for existance is to use my skills for the betterment of the lives of those close to me and maybe even the universe as a whole, and I also feel that I'm failing in that.

What Do You Want?
I want to be happy. I want to be able to wake up in the morning and have a first thought other than 'What will go wrong today?' I want to be in a position again where I look forward to things, where I can become excited about the prospects that await me. I want my friends to be happy. I want to see their faces light up as their troubles leave them behind, see them relax and be who and what they want to be without the pressures of the world weighing them down, and I want to be able to help this be the case. In short, I want the future to be a good thing for myself and others rather than something to be dreaded.

What Am I?

Here's an interesting one. Vixel pointed out earlier in the week the concept of the Johari window- it's a personality profile built up from one's own views of oneself and ratified by the views of their peers- essentially, how you see yourself and how others see you.

Here's what Wikipedia has to say about Johari Windows.

Anyway, there's an online variant of the process, covering both the Johari- one's positive qualities- and the Nohari- negative ones. As an experiment I've filled a couple in for anyone who still reads this to add to:

Cassiel's Johari Window

Cassiel's Nohari Window

As an aside, has any reader of this done a Myers-Briggs test before? I did one about a decade ago and came out as an INFJ. If anyone knows of a decent free online version, I'd be interested to know if I've changed since then. I hope I have, and I hope I've done so for the better.

And another one for you- the First Ones' Personality Test. Simply answer, each in a single paragraph, two questions: First, Who Are You? And second, What Do You Want?

I'll wait until there's some replies before I answer them. ;)

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